FREEDOM IS WAITING

Fear drives addiction, ruling us so completely that we choose it over freedom again and again.

Fear drives addiction. We fear the unknown, fear facing our demons, fear that we’re not enough. Our fears rule us so completely that we willingly choose escape over surrender. Indeed, we choose addiction over freedom, and we do it over and over again. Fear also sustains addiction. The cycle is vicious, and we’re enslaved by it. 

To put it another way, addiction is cunning and powerful. But God’s power is greater. There’s nothing that God cannot overcome. Read that again. 

God’s power is greater than your addiction. 

So, rather than allowing fear to continue to control and paralyze you, what if you chose to surrender to His power instead? What happens then? I can tell you what that choice means, but I’d rather let God show you. So, I’ll ask you this instead: Do you want to be free?

God is calling you. He longs for your surrender, for it’s only in surrender that you’ll hear Him. When it gets bad enough, you’ll turn to Him, or I pray you will. I pray you still have time, because FREEDOM is waiting.

Freedom is Waiting

LETTING GO.

It’s not easy.

It’s not supposed to be.

But it’s also not 

the impossible thing 

we make it out to be.

We’re wired to hold on.

We hold on and on and on.

We hold on to our illusions

as tightly as we hold on to pain. 

We hold on to resentment.

To anger.

We hold on for dear life.

Hold on for fear. 

We just hold on. 

We tighten our grip.

Accept the shackles.

And carry the weight.

We suffocate our souls.

Weigh down our hearts.

Punish our bodies.

Bruise our bones.

WE HOLD ON SO TIGHTLY.

And trapped in bondage 

We come to fear the very thing 

We need most.

FREEDOM.

But what if I told you

that letting go doesn’t mean falling?

THAT LETTING GO MEANS FLYING?

Would you let go?

Let all that shackles you fall away?

WOULD YOU ALLOW GOD TO BREAK YOUR CHAINS?

Because here’s the thing, 

A caged bird doesn’t know 

It’s caged until it’s been freed. 

Once its wings have touched the sky,

Once its song has echoed

across the mountains,

It never seeks that cage again.

WE ARE THAT CAGED BIRD.

And we don’t recognize our cage either.

Not until we’re free.

Only then do we see our cage for what it is. 

An illusion. 

Created in our minds.

Fed by our fears.

And locked by our own hands.

FREEDOM doesn’t beg.

It doesn’t barter.

It doesn’t scream its presence 

into our souls.

It simply waits.

Because when we finally know it,

FREEDOM ensures our cages shatter.

And the only thing we’ll carry

With us from that place

is the knowledge that all along

WE WERE MADE TO FLY.

JN Fenwick (© 2024) | mothjournal14

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I’m JN Fenwick.

Wife, mom, but more importantly, a recovering alcoholic with a grateful heart. For years, I struggled, not just with alcohol, but with an eating disorder and the burdens of guilt and shame. On March 22, 2018, I surrendered my life to Christ. I was 51. God did not forsake me. He welcomed me, as undeserving as I am. He did not see my brokenness. Instead, He saw my potential. My Recovery Journey is one of Faith. From the ashes of my failures, God built a fire in me. A fire that guides each step I take. My journey is yours. My healing can be yours, too. God is a mighty warrior. You can take comfort in the promise that the Lord will fight for you and grant you peace. | Exodus 14:14.