Journaling is a never ending story.
by Jennifer N. Fenwick, author of Four Weeks: A Journey from Darkness At the age of 19, my life changed in an unimaginable way. In a way that altered me to the very marrow of my being. All it took was a few sentences; a few words strung together and spoken by the one I’d [...]
by Linda Artman, contributing author, In the Eye of the Storm and In the Aftermath of the Storm A few days after Hurricane Michael, Mercy Chefs arrived in Panama City. They've returned many times since to provide meals and spread hope throughout the storm-battered region. Photo by Linda Artman The name suggests that food is [...]
by Sandi Klug-Lard, contributing author, In the Aftermath of the Storm "I found a massive dead rat in the shed," my husband said by way of greeting. Jesse stood in the doorway leading to our backyard, his black hair wet with humidity and sweat. "That's disgusting." I crinkled my nose. "Come look at it." He [...]
by Tracy Johnstone It started with a Facebook post 100 days after the storm. The post read like a gospel invitation. An invitation to step forward; to take a step away from the chaos of recovery. This was a salvation call for each of us as women and for the community that we all call home. Tracy [...]
by Dr. Amy Boe, contributing writer, In the Aftermath of the Storm: Stories of Hope and Healing. In the Eye of the Storm, published in January, 2019 tells the story of Hurricane Michael's brutal landfall along the Panhandle of Florida on October 10, 2018. A collection of poetry, stories, and images from survivors and residents, [...]
by Teri Hord, contributing writer, In the Aftermath of the Storm: Stories of Hope and Healing. In the Eye of the Storm, published in January, 2018 tells the story of Hurricane Michael's brutal landfall along the Panhandle of Florida on October 10, 2018. A collection of poetry, stories, and images from survivors and residents, In [...]
Hurricane Michael, One Year Later It's been one year.One year since that day.That day we'll never forget. Our world was destroyed.Torn from its foundation.Inexplicably altered.We emerged to an apocalypse. So complete in its devastation,we immediately understood,we'd never be the same.Its been one year.One year since that day.That day that challenged us.In ways we never imagined.Our [...]
Today you would’ve turned 50. I would’ve brought you boiled peanuts rather than cake. I would’ve decorated your office with black streamers,and balloons. Like you did for my 30th, and 40th, and 45th. You would’ve laughed even though you would’ve hated all the black confetti in your things. We would’ve marveled at how quickly time [...]
The smoke cleared. A new day dawned. We were forever changed. As a nation. As communities. As families. As individuals. By shock, by grief, by sorrow. We watched, we cried, we prayed. Forever marked, indelibly altered. We marched forward united. Shoulder to shoulder. Bearing the anguish. Proudly and humbly. Praying for those lost. For those [...]
As Dorian approaches, media outlets are reporting it as "an unprecedented storm in Florida," and that Dorian "would be the strongest storm to hit Florida since 1992." Cover image courtesy of Shutterstock As I look around the barren landscape and notice the still clinging blue tarps, the vacant lots where homes and businesses used to [...]
When Hurricane Micheal slammed into our cities last October, he took more with him than just our trees, our businesses, our homes. He took pieces of us. Memories we’d planted long ago. The world outside has moved on. But we, we are still living in the aftermath. Like the many cities destroyed before us by [...]
Today would have been my Father’s 82nd birthday. Each year, around this time I find myself reflecting on his life. On the man he was and on the continued impact he has on my life. My father was so many things to me. My father, yes, but so much more. His was a calming presence [...]
Teaching is a calling that opens doors and changes lives.
The moon last night shining through the bare branches of the only tree left standing in our yard after Hurricane Michael. Bent, not broken. Weary, but undeterred. Bathed in moonlit shadows.Bearing the deepest scars.Your comrades have departed.Lost in the tide of war.Valiantly you bloom.Bare branches sprouting green.Coloring our landscape, Undeterred by what you’ve seen. How like us, [...]
The 1980's were a decade unto themselves. Honestly, I've been more than surprised that in the last few years, some of those trends that marked my years of high school and college are resurfacing. Mom jeans, aka high-waisted jeans to us; shoulder pads (YIKES); neon (Lord help us!). That's me in the middle with my [...]
In this age of social media, and instantaneous sharing, we sometimes share too much. And not necessarily in ways designed to build each other up. Instead we use the platforms, from the safety of perceived obscurity, to publicly condemn, rebuke, and chastise people whose opinions and/or choices differ from our own. We hide behind our religion, [...]
I very rarely, if ever post anything that might be construed as political in nature. I find that those thoughts and opinions are usually best kept to oneself. However, in the current climate of chaos and noise and the constant barrage of talking heads and talking over one another, I was reminded of the numerous [...]
I taught American History for fifteen years, but have loved and studied history all my life. Some days I get discouraged when I watch the news and see how much of what was fought for by past generations is now being diluted and distilled in modern times. Yes, I do believe in progress. But not [...]
Perhaps the Electoral College is a victim of its own success. Most of the time it shapes American politics in ways that are beneficial but hard to see. Its effects become newsworthy only when a candidate and his or her political party lose a hard-fought and narrowly decided election.Trent England | Imprimis, June 2019 In [...]
"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wretch like me. I once was lost, but now am found. Was blind, but now I see."John Newton, 1725 - 1807 Grace. In society, it simply means a state of elegance or refinement. I always think of Audrey Hepburn when I think of grace in this [...]
Working on the sequel to In the Eye of the Storm, there are so many images around me that continually inspire words. So many of the stories I receive from contributors are hard to get through. The pain is so raw. But then, so is the hope. I find that I am ever grateful that [...]
"I have lived a thousand lives and I have loved a thousand loves. I've walked on distant worlds and seen the end of time. Because I have read." ~ George R.R. Martin Thomas Jefferson’s home, Monticello, has always been one of my favorite places to visit; especially, his library. Standing in the dim room, surrounded [...]
Congratulations to my two beautiful nieces! I cannot wait to see where your journeys take you next! It’s graduation season. And like every year, the excitement, the promise, the energy of new beginnings is in the air. I’ve always loved this time of year. Especially when I was still teaching. Watching my students embrace their [...]
I love the sound of rain. However, the sound of rain on a tin or metal roof is something else altogether. It brings to mind childhood afternoons with my Nana. My Nana, Mary Murphy Chaknis, was born in 1911 in County Cork, Ireland. Her family was poor, and by the time Nana had reached her [...]
If I could go back twenty years, and talk to the girl I was, I would tell her these three things. First, control is an illusion. You don’t have it. You never will. The harder you grip that wheel, the more out of control you’ll spin. You’ll spend so much of your time and strength [...]
Keep your head up Panama City. A feat that has proven much harder as the weeks since Michael have turned into months. Image by Sharon Owens There have only been four. Only four recorded Atlantic storms have maintained category five strength as they barreled inland. The Labor Day Hurricane of 1935, with its maximum sustained [...]
Teachers are expected to reach unattainable goals with inadequate tools. The miracle is that at times they accomplish this impossible task. Haim Ginott I left teaching in 2008. As the years pass, I realize that I left a bit of myself there too. In the lives of all the students I taught and in all [...]
Over and over again, I have learned where my strength truly lies. I thought surviving alcohol addiction and overcoming a lifelong eating disorder made me strong. I thought witnessing my child win her battle with cancer made me strong. I thought surviving the death of my father, my beautiful niece, my sister-in-law, and the murder [...]
Washington, Jefferson, T. Roosevelt, and Lincoln; the unwavering image of Mount Rushmore. “Every record has been destroyed or falsified, every book rewritten, every picture has been repainted, every statue and street building has been renamed, every date has been altered. And the process is continuing day by day and minute by minute. History has stopped. [...]
"The only thing that you absolutely have to know, is the location of the library."~ Albert Einstein. My students used to tell me I was a nerd. I’d laugh and thank them, taking it as a compliment. I wasn’t ashamed of the fact that I loved books, and words, and writing and research, and well, [...]
“Six months since Michael, much of the Florida Panhandle is still a shambles. And residents of the most affected areas feel largely forgotten by the public and the federal government, which has not yet passed a federal disaster relief bill for areas affected by Hurricane Michael.”Emily Atkin, The New Republic | April 19, 2019 Six [...]
Redeemed by His blood, That pours down like rain. Cleansing my soul, Removing its stains. Showering me in Grace, For all I have done. With the promise of eternity, My chains are undone. Shattering the darkness, Restoring the light. Lifting my blindness, Returning my sight. Bearing the scars, Taking my shame. Setting me free, Through [...]
We didn’t need the confirmation. We already knew. We felt the devastating winds. Saw with our own eyes, all the storm surge swept away. We’ve lived in the aftermath. Without help. Without relief. Relentlessly. Since that day. We’ve keenly felt the deaths. The catastrophic devastation. The destruction to our homes and cities. Our livelihoods. Our [...]
Image by Cindy K. Sickle The evening after, the sun set,with a resounding orange,that set fire to what remained.Broken trees. Barren roads.The shattering complete.I thought I was strong.Until I saw the young boy,standing before what used to be his home.“It’s gone, he said, but we’re still here.”That’s when I knew. I knew nothing of strength [...]
When I was a young girl, my Dad introduced me to The Scarlet Ibis by James Hurst. A beautifully haunting short story about two brothers and the wonderful, terrible truth about pride. It was something Dad and I talked of often. I shared it with my girls. When Dad passed in 2010, I had a [...]
In this new world. we are shattered, hopeful souls. Bearing losses of unimaginable depth. Shouldering the burden of staggering, debilitating grief. In this new world, we are determined warriors. Maintaining our faith in the face of insurmountable odds. Believing still, that even alone, we will rise again. In this new world, we press onward. Without [...]
26 weeks.That’s how long it’s been,since our world was broken,our lives stripped and shattered.183 days.That’s how long it’s been,since we prayed for deliverance,as the angry winds gathered.4,380 hours.That’s how long it’s been,since we rode out the storm,that left us trembling and tattered.262,800 minutes.That’s how long it’s been,since we witnessed the destruction,crushing everything that mattered.15,768,017 seconds.That’s [...]
“Everyone here has a story of loss they struggle to describe and recovery they cannot yet comprehend.” 1. There was no way to adequately prepare. We'd done this before, many of us, more than once; prepared for the possibility of a hurricane visiting us during the Season. We were used to Summer ushering in, not [...]
We don't always see ourselves the way others do. But that's the beauty of reflection. Through the eyes of others, we get a glimpse of who we truly are. An Extraordinary State of Being | Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
My niece's essay on the pitfalls of blindly seeking perfection is as timely today as when the short stories on which it is based were written.Based on The Cathedral, by Raymond Carver and The Birthmark, by Nathaniel Hawthorne. Physical perfection is something our society places great value in. There are multi-billion dollar industries devoted to [...]
Sometimes the words don't come. And then there are times they do, but in their fragility, they fail to capture the essence of the soul. For how can mere words ever describe something so profoundly eternal?An Extraordinary State of Being | Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
The Poetry of Michael. In the Aftermath. © 2019 Jennifer N. Fenwick In the Eye of the Storm: Stories of Survival and Hope from the Florida Panhandle. Available now on Amazon. All money earned from book sales goes directly to the United Way of Northwest Florida Hurricane Micheal Relief Fund. 100% of donations to the [...]
The Love Note Series | Jennifer N. Fenwick
Be brave, my child. And give hope a chance. An Extraordinary State of Being | Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
My story, Four Weeks: A Journey from Darkness, is available on Amazon. One year ago today, I walked into the doors of the Orlando Recovery Center, beaten, battered and bruised. By my own hand. By my own fears. It may come as a surprise to some, not so much to others, but I had suffered [...]
Downtown Marianna, FL following Hurricane Michael on October 10, 2018. The entire Florida Panhandle suffered catastrophic damage with property losses to date at a staggering $5 billion and growing. In the aftermath we said goodbyeTo so many thingsThe treesOur homesOur landmarks Our citiesWe grieved for these lossesFor ourselvesFor each otherFor our shattered livesWe promised to rebuildTo [...]
Image by John Fenwick There was that awful momentwhen my heart finally understood,I’d never see you again. Not in this life.The breaking, overwhelming. The goodbye, forever. The shattering, excruciating.The absence, so agonizingly complete.Nothing can ever prepare youfor the goodbye you never thoughtyou’d have to say. For the loss you never thought you’d have to feel.For the emptiness you never thoughtyou’d [...]
As the winds roar, As the waves rise higher, As fear overcomes, Faith stands. As destruction grows, As devastation overpowers, As the broken cry out, Faith stands. As the world transforms, As the road ahead darkens, As we become weary, Faith stands. As we stumble forward, As the shattering continues, As our broken hearts grieve, [...]
Passion born of love. The Love Note Series | Jennifer N. Fenwick
Though I would gladly take her pain. I knew that it would be her own strength that would give her the wings she'd need to soar. An Extraordinary State of Being | Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
Live, my child. Everyday, live. An Extraordinary State of Being | Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
In the past few months, we've found it difficult to breathe. We've shed many tears. There's grief. But there's also hope. So much hope. #850strong An Extraordinary State of Being | by Jennifer N. and Nichole Fenwick
Traveling home each day, there are reminders everywhere... Miles of piles, and shattered lives. Places that were, but exist no more. Broken soldiers, lining tattered streets. All that’s left, of our once green trees. Snapped into, these soldiers fell. Swept away, within the gale. I used to love, to drive these roads. Where beside the [...]
For years I struggled with an eating disorder that controlled my life. It wasn’t until I realized that the perfection I so desperately sought was nothing more than a destructive illusion that I sought help and in surrender found peace.
