Patiently, Lovingly, He waits

In the darkness of addiction and anorexia, I suffered endlessly, forgetting that all along, God was just waiting for me to call His name.

Hope existed, even when darkness and despair filled my being, I found and held tightly to that seed of hope. It grew as I grew. It became stronger as I grew stronger. It was God’s presence and power that gave it meaning. Hope was the light and the guide that carried me out of the darkness. It’s the light and the power that feeds my faith and calms my soul. Hope is what I share with you now.

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Sometimes FAITH is all it takes to find our way out of the darkness.

To stand in the middle of the storm and face our fears. 


It helps us find courage.

Gives us strength to hope, to believe, to heal. 

It’s called FAITH, and sometimes it’s all we need. 

JN Fenwick (© 2021-2022) | mothjournal14

Presence was something I had to learn. Not just any presence, but presence in the fullness and love of Christ. Each time I came to Him, He was there. Each time I felt myself falter, He lifted me. In the perfection of His love and grace, I find peace.

Exodus 33:14 reminds us, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” Just as God delivered His people from bondage, so too does He deliver us. From bondage, from pain, from fear, He takes our burdens and replaces them with His light and goodness. “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart,” Jeremiah 29:13.

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Lord, fill my mind, my heart, my soul,

so that all I see and all I know,

is the sureness of Your presence.

Wholly consume my battered spirit,

in the valley and on the summit,

with Your grace and perfect goodness.

Place in me a burning fire,

overwhelm my heart, Lord, and my desire,

with Your gentle mercy in all its fullness.

Use my hands and my stumbling feet,

to reach a world so filled with need,

for Your abiding love and blessed assurance.

Fill my heart, my mind, and soul, 

with all You are, Lord, and nothing more,

so that all I am or will ever be,

is a reflection of Your light in me.

JN Fenwick (© 2019-2022) | mothjournal14