Happy Birthday, Dad

Happy Birthday, Dad

Today would have been my Father’s 82nd birthday. Each year, around this time I find myself reflecting on his life. On the man he was and on the continued impact he has on my life. My father was so many things to me. My father, yes, but so much more. His was a calming presence [...]

If I Could Talk to the Girl I Was

If I Could Talk to the Girl I Was

If I could go back twenty years, and talk to the girl I was, I would tell her these three things. First, control is an illusion. You don’t have it. You never will. The harder you grip that wheel, the more out of control you’ll spin. You’ll spend so much of your time and strength [...]

A Story of Strength

A Story of Strength

Over and over again, I have learned where my strength truly lies. I thought surviving alcohol addiction and overcoming a lifelong eating disorder made me strong. I thought witnessing my child win her battle with cancer made me strong. I thought surviving the death of my father, my beautiful niece, my sister-in-law, and the murder [...]

A Journey from Darkness

A Journey from Darkness

For four weeks, I embarked on a journey. In the beginning; I believed it was necessary because I was weak and incapable of fitting into my life. This journey has proven to be about so much more. It quickly became a journey of the spirit that led to the profound discovery of myself. Myself, stripped [...]

Still Here and Grateful

Still Here and Grateful

Thanksgiving dawned clear and bright, slightly cooler than expected. Sitting on my porch, coffee in hand, I looked out at the landscape illuminated by the growing light. So different now since October 10, so very different. The sun's rays brought clarity to the differences, outlining them in a stark reminder of all the storm took. [...]